Back from Boston

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Sorry not to post for a while... had a lovely weekend away in Boston visiting my college friend Grace. Grace is fantastic, she always lifts my spirits and we have a shit ton of fun together. I got in late Friday night and we stayed up until dawn, drinking and catching up. We spent the day Saturday wandering around the city, eating crappy (yet delicious!) hot dogs in the gardens and shopping at H&M on Newbury Street. I bought a super hot dress, and Grace got a low cut top that makes the most of her stunning tits.

We had planned to go out from there, but decided to run to her place to get all tarted up in our new outfits. Boston nightlife is a bit different from NYC nightlife. Sure, you'll see girls dressed to the nines downtown, but for the most part folks are more low-key than in New York. I like that. Sometimes going out in NY surrounded by statuesque stunners, I feel like the frumpy country cousin. I mean, seriously, is everyone in New York a model? Because sometimes it feels that way. Everyone wears the latest fashions and looks so put-together, even when they're rocking the 'I just threw on whatever I found on my floor' look. But in Boston, the vibe is much more relaxed.

Still, on a hot night, a sex kitten dress and killer heels don't look out of place in any city...

After getting all dolled up, Grace and I headed out to one of my two favorite bars in Boston, Bukowski Tavern. It's a fun place to go on a weekend night. Not a great place to talk and catch up, because it's super loud, but a good time nonetheless. I tend not to like too many bars in Boston, and certainly not downtown... If given a choice, I'd go out in Cambridge, but since Grace lives in Boston now, going out in the South End requires less drunken walking/cabbing at the end of the night. That's one thing I hate about Boston - the lack of public transportation late at night. If you stay until closing time, you're pretty much shit of luck for transport options unless you take a cab. I often take cabs when I'm at home, but Cambridge to Boston can be an expensive ride.

We stayed at Bukowski for a bit and decided to walk to my other favorite spot, Delux Cafe... Much as I love Bukowski, there's only so much yell-talking I can do before my throat starts to hurt. Plus, it was such a nice night out we wanted to take a drunk stroll.

Delux is one of those quirky little bars with a strange assortment of crap on the walls - Elvis memorabilia, Christmas lights, the works... cheap drinks, fun atmosphere. It's kinda teeny tiny, so it can be hard to get a seat, but it doesn't really matter.

When we got there, it was packed, so Grace and I wormed our way towards the bar to order drinks. She managed to get up front, so I waited behind her to grab our drinks. I was sorta standing there, spacing out a little when the guy in front of me turned around with two beers in his hand. I tried to back up a little to let him past, and looked up at him briefly. We locked eyes and he gave me such a big, genuine, amazing smile that I couldn't help but smile back. I'm normally so shy and awkward that when a hot guy smiles at me, I look away... But this smile was so infectious, so warm, I smiled back without even thinking. Just then Grace turned around with our drinks, so I followed her towards the back. Amazingly, a table emptied just as soon as we headed back, and we made a beeline for it. As we sat down, I whispered to Grace 'the hottest guy just smiled at me'... 'You mean the guy over there that keeps staring at you?' she hissed back... I stole a quick glance in the direction she indicated and saw the guy looking right at me. Thankfully, the darkness of the bar covered the bright red spreading across my chest. But still, I averted my eyes, totally embarrassed. If it weren't for Grace, I probably wouldn't have ever talked to the guy, but totally uninhibited woman that she is, waved him over.

He and his friend made his way back to our table and I realized he was even hotter than I'd first thought. I sipped my drink and tried to think of something witty to say, but was completely tongue-tied. Thank god for Grace... she started talking, the guys bought us more drinks, and soon I was drunk enough to chatter away and overcome my shyness...

The night wore on and I got steadily drunker. At one point I decided to duck outside for a smoke - I don't generally smoke anymore, but when I drink I like to have the occasional cigarette. As I tried to push my way through the crowd, I felt someone's hand grab mine. I looked back to see Caleb following me, a mischievous glint in his blue eyes. I smiled back at him and kept my hand clasped in his as we snaked out through the bar...

Once outside, we stood around chatting awkwardly amongst the other smokers. I nervously toyed with my lighter, not yet taking out a cigarette. I desperately wanted to kiss him, run my hands underneath his shirt, feel the warmth of his stomach under my fingertips. I was so mesmerized by his lips, imagining what he'd taste like, that it was all I could do to focus on what he was saying. Without stopping to think and before I could lose my nerve, I grabbed his hand and dragged him around the corner of the bar. As soon as we were away from the crowds, I pushed him back against the wall of a building and kissed him. God, he smelled amazing, warm and spicy and sunny...

I pulled back for a second, suddenly worried that I'd been too forward. Caleb took the opportunity to pull me further into the darkness, this time pressing me against the rough brick wall... I spent a semester abroad in Dublin my junior year, and it's the site of one of my favorite fantasies... In it, I'm in Ireland, drinking in a pub and meet this sexy stranger with an accent that melts me like butter, and before I know it we're fucking wildly outside against the wall of the pub, my skirt hiked above my waist, his strong fingers cupping my ass. Sadly, this did not happen during my time there, although I kept hoping! However, the fantasy did keep me entertained on many a lonely drunken night. Tonight, with Caleb, my back pressed against the wall, his hands on my tits, my fingers curled into the waistband of his jeans, stroking that tantalizing bit of flesh just above his cock, was the closest I'd come to my fantasy Irish fuck (minus the accent) and it was driving me wild...

The layers of clothes between us were too much, even my thin dress and his lightweight t-shirt were too much fabric, too much of a barrier between us. I pushed him away from me and, while keeping my eyes fixed upon his gaze, hitched up my dress and showed him a glimpse of my panties. I hadn't dressed with the intention of them being seen but did make sure to wear something sexy, just in case. His eyes darted down and took in my white lace boyshorts, quickly returning to my face with a beam. Apparently Caleb approved.

He unbuckled his belt, popping the top couple of buttons of his jeans. Lifting his t-shirt a little I could make out his wonderfully chiseled hips and toned stomach. While certainly not a muscled being, he was in terrific shape. I pulled him close to me once more, pressing my mouth against his. Passion spread throughout our bodies like wildfire. I reached down, now able to ease my hands into the opening at the top of his jeans and was able to clasp his cock in between my fingers. Gently I squeezed the head, pulling what appeared from touch at least to be his uncut foreskin back and forth along his thick shaft. He shifted his position, letting my hand drop further into his pants. My hand felt its way along his entire length, his cock throbbing as I touched. Slowly I made my way towards his balls, and cupped them gently as I stroked him.

Caleb made sure I didn't miss out. As I toyed with him he grabbed my thigh and made his way towards my soaked panties. My knees trembled as he traveled towards my pussy, while still he forcefully and wonderfully darted his tongue into my mouth. I felt two of his fingers pull the fabric to one side before two more pressed against the walls of my pussy. They didn't exactly meet much resistance. He plunged them into me; deep, fast and hard. Caleb finger fucked me so wildly that I knew sex with him would be even more amazing.
'Condom?' I asked between pants.
'Don't have one' he said, still fingering me furiously.

To cut a long story short (though I've just re-read what I've written so far and this is certainly not short!) I will have to wait until I can feel Caleb's cock inside me. He didn't have a condom and neither did I, and not wanting to take a stranger back to Grace's (not that she'd mind, I'm sure but I hate to impose!) we ended up swapping numbers and terribly guilty and disgusting looks when we eventually straightened ourselves up and went back inside. Fear not; I will get my man!

First online date

Friday, April 24, 2009

I went on my first online date last night, and it was... blah. There was nothing wrong with the guy, he was nice, funny, smart, not bad looking - everything I want, you'd think. And yet... it just wasn't there - that spark, that indefinable thing that makes you want to stand on a street corner and makeout with someone for hours, the mysterious quality that makes you throw caution to the wind and grab the guy by his belt buckle to pull him closer, closer, until before you even articulate it as a coherent thought, you're dragging him back to your apartment.

We had a perfectly pleasant evening out, low-key dinner at an Irish pub (I'm a sucker for their sausage and curry fries - read into my love of sausage what you will), lots of good beer, and great conversation. We hit it off instantly - he was almost like a male version of me, we had that much in common. I don't know why I didn't feel any tingle with Mark, I just... didn't.

It was really too bad, because had I met Mark under any other circumstances, we could have been great friends. Although, I've found that the male/female friendship dynamic can be fraught with tension, it's hard to find a member of the opposite sex who truly does want to be just 'friends'. But because I met Mark in the context of online dating, he definitely wasn't interested in being just friends.

So my evening was, on the one hand, very enjoyable and on the other, totally awkward as I tried to nicely hint that I wasn't sexually interested. I'm not great at being direct sometimes. So today, when he emailed me to ask about a second date, I told him I just wasn't interested. Which sucked, because I feel like Mark would be a great beer buddy. Sadly, he is definitely not interested in being a beer buddy.

Oh well, back to square one I guess. I was supposed to go on another date this weekend with this guy I've been chatting with a bit, but I've rescheduled for next week. I decided a girl's weekend is in order and am about to hop on the Chinatown express bus up to Boston to see my college friend Grace. Should be a fun weekend, Sox are playing (I grew up in New England so I'm a Red Sox fan) and Grace is always a good time. We've got plans to get sexied up and hit the town, maybe a little light flirting with Boston guys and scoring some free drinks will make me more enthusiastic about trying my next online date!

In which I assure everyone that I am not nuts

Monday, April 20, 2009

Since my last post, I've gotten *loads* of emails warning me of the perils of Craigslist - thanks to everyone who has written, your emails are awesome! So I wanted to write a quick post to reassure everyone that I'm not nuts, and I promise I won't go on a date and end up in a garbage bag or a Law & Order episode.

Online dating can be scary, and believe me, I'm hesitant about even trying it. Granted, with a site like Match.com that you have to pay for, many of the truly messed up individuals are screened out... But even still, I have some friends with horror stories. Nothing truly scary or violent or anything like that, but people who have misrepresented themselves, or flat-out lied. So there's that to think about. Of course, I had a boyfriend in college that maintained two sets of friends and two girlfriends, and I met him the regular old way... Some people are just really devious.

I'm well aware of the recent violent crimes associated with online dating in general and CL in particular, so I'm going into this eyes wide open. I may be more selective in the CL usage and just respond directly to ads that strike my fancy. I have a pretty active sketch-meter - I worked in a really skanky dive bar in college with an interesting crowd of nutbars. It was a fun job and educational too! So if nothing else, I'm pretty good at spotting potentially sketchy situations.

All that being said it's the less terrifying elements of online dating that are freaking me out... If I respond to an ad on CL, I have to send my picture. But what do I send? I am one of those unphotogenic people that is totally way better in real-life than pictures. I tend to look a) stoned, b) pissed off, c) blurry or d) all of the above... I swear in real life my eyes are generally open and I'm not this twitchy, cranky, drug-addled loon. Some women perfect that half-lidded sultry gaze... I, on the other hand, am merely dopey looking. The only halfway good pictures of me are when I'm doing something like hiking. And in those I'm sweaty, dirty and generally far away. So, already even just the picture thing is causing me angst. I threw up a couple with my OK Cupid profile, but like I said, they mostly seem to attracting much older men. Of course, I've got lots of headless photos that I've posted here, and those may get me some dates...

Then there's the rejection factor, both of me and my potential suitors. I hate hate hate sending my picture to someone and getting shot down, or worse, getting no reply at all. I mean, if I'm in a bar and some guy doesn't find me attractive, he just wouldn't ever hit on me. At least he won't walk up to me and say something like "you're really not my type", as one gentleman said in response to my picture. Granted, once I saw his picture, he really wasn't my type either, but his rejection still stung. And I'm not great at rejecting people either. I don't like to judge people based on how they look, but let's be honest, looks do matter... at least a little. And when you don't know much about a person, you've never met them, looks are all you have to go on. But I hate hurting people's feelings, and I don't want to be mean, so I'm often at a loss for how to respond to someone I'm just not interested in...

I clearly over-analyze everything.

In any case, I've been exchanging emails/IMs/phone calls with a few guys that seem to have some potential. I'm going out for drinks and dinner with one guy this week, and perhaps another one this weekend. We'll see how that goes... And as always, I'll keep you posted.

On the bright side, all this weeding through emails and pictures and profiles has given me something to do at night. It's kind of nice to search for my next man from the comfort of my couch in my pajamas and save myself going to the bar and all the effort that involves... primping, plucking, shaving, uncomfortable heels, push-up bra, adjusting my tits for maximum benefit, and shelling out far too much money for a watered-down drink - all for the slim hope that I'll meet someone worthwhile. I'm tired of the bar scene, spending too much money and going home alone. Here's hoping my potentials don't turn into total disasters!

online dating misadventures already

Friday, April 17, 2009

Now that I've put my intentions in print, I can't very well back down now, can I? It's like telling everyone you know that you're going to quit smoking or go on a diet. Once you've done that, you're relegated to sneaking a cigarette behind a parked van or stuffing a cupcake in your mouth locked in your bedroom...

So I decided I'd grab the bull by the horns last night and post an ad with one of the online dating sites. Those eHarmony commercials freak me the fuck out, so I passed on them. Some of my friends have had luck with Match, so I went there first. I did a quick search to scope out the potentials before forking over my credit card info and who do I see matched with me on the first page? Fucking Jim. Seriously? Next.

I ended up creating a profile on OK Cupid, specifying that I didn't want anyone older than late thirties. This morning I woke up with a bunch of messages for my profile. I swear to God, every single one was over 50. Who are these guys?! Not that I have anything against older men (as evidenced by Tyler), but I was hoping for someone closer to my own age. Yikes.

So, I ended up cruising the Craigslist personals. I figure it's free, and while a haven for sketchy folk of all types, you never know. I responded to a few ads, and I'm trying my hand at one of my own. The thing is, I'm not quite sure where to post, or how to write it. I mean, I'm not really looking for a life partner at this point. I wouldn't turn it down if I met the perfect guy, but I don't really want another boyfriend just now. I want something less than a boyfriend, more than an NSA hookup... I don't mind the 'friends with benefits' thing, but the term grosses me out. It's like when someone refers to their bf/gf/fuckbuddy as 'lover'. It just gives me the willies :)

So, is there a CL acronym for that? Not a boyfriend, not a casual lay, someone kinky, but not disturbingly so, someone who will bring me chicken soup when I'm sick, but not feel the need to spend every weekend with me, someone who won't mind that I might date other people. In my experience, this guy doesn't seem to exist. Every time I've dated a guy and said, upfront 'I do not want a boyfriend', they've initially been like 'Fantastic!'. Within weeks, they're pissed that I date other guys and wanting to hear about my day and talking about how great we'd be if I'd just give them a chance. I've had some bad luck with boyfriends stomping all over my heart (hi Jim!), and I'm just not looking for that again any time soon. Fucking, yes. Love and heartbreak, not so much.

But how to write the perfect ad to fill my requirements? I think I'll have to take a chance with the women for men section, casual encounters seems to be filled with men who are hoping to "help a pretty girl with her bills"... I am a little bit apprehensive about posting an ad on CL though. Abbie tried it once and got literally HUNDREDS of responses. I don't want finding a date to turn into a full-time job!

confession time

Thursday, April 16, 2009

I've really enjoyed writing this blog so far, and I've loved the emails I've gotten from my readers. But I feel it is time to be upfront about a few things. First off, you wouldn't know it from reading the blog, but I am terribly, painfully, embarrassingly shy. You can see from the pictures I've posted thus far that I'm rather pale... This, combined with my shyness makes for a number of awkward situations. I turn beet red at the slightest provocation - asking someone a simple question can sometimes lead to that slow flush creeping up my chest to my hairline, until I'm the color of a tomato. It also meant that I needed considerable cool down time after teenaged escapades because my chest would go all blotchy red and it would be immediately obvious what I'd been doing moments earlier.

Pfft... enough dancing about. This foray into my crippling shyness is really all just lead in to my big reveal that I've been less than completely honest here. Well, that's not entirely true either. Nothing I've written thus far, with the exception of my gym adventure with Todd, has been false. And really, up until me asking Todd home to fuck me, that was all true too. But when Todd asked me for coffee, my dreaded shyness reared it's ugly head - I turned red, stuttered and dropped my water bottle, then while trying to pick that up, managed to drop my keys in a puddle. By this point, I felt like such an utter ass, I basically fled to my car. I couldn't even look him in the eye, I felt like such a dork!

So, really Todd was the motivation and inspiration for starting this blog. I cursed myself the whole way home for not being able to respond properly to a simple request for coffee. I just don't seem to be able to get the hang of this whole 'adult' dating thing. The drunken groping in the bar with my ex? Got that down to an art form. But the sober interactions with someone I find attractive? Elusive.

This is why I end up fantasizing about Naomi, and Tyler, and then falling into bed with Jim when I know I shouldn't. I just can't seem to do the meeting someone under normal circumstances thing properly. I go back and read what I wrote about my imagined night with Todd and I kick myself. In all honestly, my fevered imaginings are probably far better than the potential reality. But it is the fact that I'll never know that kills me. He may not have been Mr. Right, he may have had a teeny tiny penis (not that I'm a size queen), he may have been an utterly boring asshole. But because I'm terrible at these things, I'm left just wondering what could have been.

The thing is, it wasn't always this way. In college, things were much different. Drunk and full of swagger, I practically tripped over cock most weekends. I'm not some super-hot siren, luring men with a swish of the hips and a come-hither look or anything. It's just that the combination of free flowing booze and raging hormones made it fairly easy to at least find someone to nail me. And given the liberal atmosphere, most anything went. I played truth or dare with a room full of hot lesbians, and got my first taste of girl-on-girl action. I had my first (and second, third and fourth) three way there. We were young, on our own for the first time, and sex was constantly in the air.

Once I left school and moved to New York, I realized I didn't have the same charmed existence when it came to sex. What had once required little less than 'hey' and copious amounts of beer, suddenly required actual conversation and seduction and flirting skills that I seem to lack. All my male friends swear to me that sex is easy for women - that all I have to do is get my tits out, flirt a little and take a guy home. But it doesn't seem to be that easy for me. I mean sure, when I'm out at the bar with friends and boozed up, I can swing a sloshy hookup with the best of them. When it comes to trying to pick up that cute guy at the coffee shop, or work up the nerve to ask out a guy I met at a party, I'm fucking hopeless.

So. Todd motivated me to write this blog because I needed an outlet for all my unspent lust. And now, your emails and comments are inspiring me to come clean. You've all given me the courage to stop being such a pussy and just take what I want.

I'm still going to the gym and have yet to see Todd, but when (or if) I do... damn it, I'm just going to ask him out. In the meantime, though, I've decided to be proactive and check out online dating. You'd think with all the other shit I do online, I'd have done it by now, but I haven't. A lot of my friends seem to have decent luck with it though. And of course, I'll chronicle all my dating adventures (and misadventures) here, so stay tuned.

On the joys of teenage sex

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

You always hear that tired adage 'you can't go home again' and while it's true, there is something nice about going back to your hometown for a brief visit. I generally only go home for the holidays, as do most of my high school friends, so it's a good time to catch up and enjoy drinking legally and with no curfew.

Home visiting the folks this Easter, I got together with my high school sweetheart. He wasn't my first, but I was his, and I've always had a soft spot for him. Before you get all excited, we didn't fuck. Sorry!

We did go out for dinner and drinks though and drive around all our old haunts, reminiscing about old times. Of course, when you're 17 and horny there aren't too many places you can safely fuck without getting caught. So we got creative. There was of course the obligatory back-of-the-car-makeout, the "we're-just-watching-a-movie-in-the-basement-mom-I-swear" fingering and the blanket-on-the-football-field-after-dark fucking. Jesus, I think we groped each other in just about every back lane and dark corner in town. So driving around together in our small town was like a star tour of 'places Chloe came' and it got me thinking about the joys of adolescent sex.

At 17, all I wanted was a proper bed and the space and time to fuck for real. No 'wait! wait! shh! was that my parents coming home?!' right as things were getting good. No driving around forever trying to find a quiet, out of the way place to park and screw without intervention from the local cops. In my desperation to fuck like a grown up, I couldn't wait to have my own apartment and my own bed...

The thing is, driving around with my high school ex, remembering our rushed fumbling in the back seat of my car, our nights on a scratchy blanket under the stars and our frantic petting in the basement rec room, I realized that 'grown-up' sex is missing something. There's something magical and amazing about all that delayed release, delayed gratification. The nights we drove around trying madly to find somewhere, anywhere to get naked are hard to get back. Even if I tried now to recreate it, the knowledge that my partner and I have money, apartments, and hotels at our disposal make it somehow false. It was really the desperation and the lack of any other options that made those nights so hot.

Of course, since then I've dates where we couldn't wait to get our hands on each other, where I was dripping wet the whole train (or cab) ride home and the tingle I'd get from just brushing my leg against his was enough to send me over the edge. But it isn't the same. I don't have that fear of getting caught. I can get finger fucked in the back seat of a cab and not worry that someone will see and tell my mom.

So this Easter weekend at home left me feeling a bit nostalgic (and horny)... I've perhaps gotten a little taste of the forbidden with my dangerous flirtations with Tyler, but it is still lacking. I think now that I'm back and settled and the air is warm and spring-like I'm getting that urge... I haven't had a proper fuck since Todd and he seems to vanished into the ether. Weather's good, time to go on a hunt. But it can't be just any old cock this time around... to quote one of my favorite songs, 'I'm holding out for that teenage feeling'...

RIP Marilyn Chambers

Monday, April 13, 2009

Just saw that legendary porn actress Marilyn Chambers has died. In her honor I'm posting a teaser trailer for her flick "Inside Marilyn Chambers". I might just have to pick up a video of hers... I'm thinking 'Behind the Green Door'... One of those classic pornos I've never seen but always meant to. Time to remedy the situation.

Jumping on the Amazon Fail Bandwagon

So I'm back in town and tired from driving most of the day, so I'm just posting a quick one tonight. I have a longer post planned - wrote most of it in my head while driving - but I'm too wiped to type it all out tonight. Tomorrow, I promise!

In the meantime, I want to talk a little bit about what I like to read... I read regular books of course, but I get a lot of inspiration from erotic novels/erotica. Like everything else in my life, I shop online for my erotic fix :) So I was a little peeved when I started hearing about Amazon's recent changes to sales rankings and what is classified as 'adult' material.

If you haven't heard, Amazon has been stripping the sales rankings from gay and lesbian literature (romance novels, erotica, etc.), books about sexuality and feminist books, among others. This matters because without sales rankings, these books frequently don't show up in searches. For example, an Amazon search for 'homosexuality' now turns up "A Parent's Guide to Preventing Homosexuality" as the first result. A strange collection of books have been classified as 'adult' material and are no longer showing up in searches, including books just about sex in general. For a time (it may have changed now) a biography of Ellen DeGeneres was even classified as 'adult' material.

Amazon swears that this is all a huge mistake, but it is slightly troubling that it largely appeared to affect books about sex and sexuality. Amazon has caught a lot of flack from blogs and such, so they're frantically trying to fix it. I don't want to get all political on my sex blog, but as someone who writes about sex, I wanted to be supportive of all the writers out there that got screwed (ha!) by Amazon's changes. I often use Amazon to order erotic literature and damn it, I want it to come up when I search for it :)

Jezebel.com has a good recap and list of books that were affected and those that were not... It does seem to be really unevenly applied, so hopefully it is all a glitch and I don't have to start shopping elsewhere for my wank novels :)

Oh well, time to drag my sleepy ass to the gym and try to undo all the fatty food I ate with the family. Perhaps Todd will be there doing the same? I'm starting to think he's never coming back...

off the radar for a few days

Saturday, April 11, 2009

I decided on a whim last night to drive up north for the holiday weekend - see family and friends in my hometown, eat ham and easter candy - so I won't be posting until I get back. I'm posting now from my Mom's computer... Fortunately she's not very tech savvy, but I'm clearing out the history and such, just in case :)

A few of my favorite things...

Thursday, April 9, 2009

You'll be happy to hear that I feel better today. I slept for ages last night, going to bed far too early for a girl in her mid twenties. You may have images of me as a party girl, out and about in the city at all hours waking up in strange bedrooms most mornings or at my place with different guys in my bed. Sadly, the truth is that, last night at least, I was asleep by ten and was still kind of tired when I woke up! I actually hit the snooze button a few too many times this morning and was forced to miss out on my daily walk to the bakery... I do hope that Naomi forgives me :)

As promised, and as thanks for some of you sharing your desires with me, I've decided to share one of my greatest pleasures with you...

I'm often a fairly simple girl... I think some of my all time favorite fucks have been when I've been tied to the bed (I keep scarves in my bedside table for just that) and blindfolded. There's something so incredibly erotic about *knowing* that something is coming, but not knowing what... the anticipation is delicious. I come really close to orgasm just waiting to see what he'll do... finger me? lick my pussy? nibble on a nipple? brush the tip of his cock against my lips? I LOVE giving head tied up and blindfolded like that - it's the being dominated but also being in control that does it for me I think... But yeah, the not knowing and the waiting and the teasing and not being able to do anything about it drives me wild. especially when my partner just sorta pauses without doing anything for a second. it gets me so hot just laying there, waiting to be touched, dying to be touched and wondering what's coming next :)

One of the hottest times was when i wore my thigh highs, heels, garters, crotchless panties, the works, under my regular clothes and went out with my ex doing normal things - walking the dog (in heels!), going out to dinner and knowing that I was wearing something completely trashy underneath and building up the anticipation. then we went home and he tied me to the bed, blindfolded. I could hear him pacing the room for a little while... like a child in a candy store he seemed to be unsure of what he wanted to do first. Finger me? Suck on my nipples? Run his cock along my lips and feel my tongue run along his shaft?

I have to be honest, I did sorta expect his cock to be pressed against my mouth. That's what most guys would do, right? It's also what I wanted... Like I said, there's just nothing like giving blindfolded head to make me wet...

It surprised me a little therefore to feel his strong hands on my waist. He positioned me on my side, my ass available to him. His fingers ran their way along my cheeks, pausing to sliver their way through the non-existent crotch of my panties, tickling my labia, brushing my clit. He went back to my ass, kneading it gently before suddenly lifting his hand.

*WHACK!*

His hand returned with some force, spanking my ass. Now like I've said, I'm not one for pain... but a well timed spank, enough to send my skin into a glowing pleasure zone can be amazing. He withdrew his hand once more...

*WHACK!*

Again it returned, again the pain/pleasure threshold was being delightfully threatened. Again, he withdrew his hand.

*WHACK! WHACK! WHACK!*

Again and again he spanked me, again and again I uttered sharp moans as he struck. His fingers danced over my ass as he hit me, closer and closer to my now dripping pussy. With one final strike, two fingers delved into me, probing my pussy. The combination of the spanking, the fingering, my being tied and blindfolded sent me into overdrive. I screamed with pleasure, begging him to fuck me and to fuck me hard.

He didn't disappoint. Pushing me back so that I lay flat, face down on my bed he roughly parted my lips and pressed his hard dick against my pussy, teasing me for a couple of seconds before vigorously fucking me. This ex and I often made love, this time he treated me like I was a piece of meat and I fucking loved it.

His hands joined mine as I gripped onto the headboard through my restraints, he used all of the leverage that he could get. he clasped his fingers around mine as he rode me. Fast and hard he fucked me, that unmistakable 'balls slapping on my ass' sound drowned out by his masculine grunts and my harsh screams. That night he fucked me deeper and harder than ever before and I couldn't hold on for long. As my blindfold slipped slightly I saw just his hands in front of me, his white knuckles gripping mine.

We came in unison, him letting out a groan of pleasure; me gasping for air between orgasmic shudders. When he withdrew he released my wrists but pushed my face into the pillow. He slapped my ass once more, saying in a voice deeper than usual 'clean yourself up, bitch'.


A Disclaimer

Of course, my ex and I were very comfortable with each other before we did this, and we both knew how each other worked. We knew that what happened in the bedroom wasn't always a true reflection of our relationship... if he'd said 'where's my dinner, bitch' under normal circumstances, or left me alone to clean myself up after sex (a true gentleman at least makes the trip to the bathroom for tissue!), he'd have been out of the door a lot sooner than he eventually was. We had talked about this scenario a little beforehand, and he knew what I'd be comfortable with. Before I get a bunch of emails from angry wives and girlfriends, please try to respect limits... don't just spring this shit on your partner with no warning :)

Ugh...

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Busy at work and now I think I'm getting sick. Yuck. So I'm afraid there isn't much of a post tonight, but I promise I'll be back in top form tomorrow and post something more worthy of my lovely readers. Yikes, my goal of a post a day may prove to be tricky...

However, I got a delightful follow-up email to the one I posted yesterday... he wanted fun suggestions for a lovely night alone with the wife. which got me thinking about my fantasies and some of my favorite sexual experiences... I'm far too achy and tired to do it justice tonight, but stay tuned... I'll share a few of my favorite things with you all tomorrow.

And now, for something completely different...

Tuesday, April 7, 2009


Saw an article this evening with scientific proof that bacon sandwiches cure hangovers. I knew it! Thought I'd share this very important research with my readers :)


Image via the Food Pornographer's Flickr

Read what I read...

It's certainly been a crazy few days, writing this blog. Obviously it's been great that so much has happened, but I do like to think that it's partly been because of the added confidence that I've had in the last couple of weeks.

All of the emails that I get, all of the comments and all of the hits on the site have shown me that people are interested in not only what I look like (never hurts to hear!) but also what I have to say. It's such a boost to morale to wake up in the morning, check my email and find out that I have a new fan...

I've spent a little time also checking out other blogs, seeing what else is out there and also because just like you, oftentimes nothing gets me hotter and wetter than reading an amazing sex blog. If you do like mine you should also check out the ones that I have listed to the right of this page... each is Chloe Certified to make you hard or wet and most certainly horny ;)

I'd also like to share something else with you... an email that one of you sent to me that sent me into pure bliss. I don't know if it's the fact that he said that I inspired him, and therefore that his wife received the fuck of the year because of me, or if it was just that his story sent me into a fantasy world of my own... but I certainly used and abused my trusty vibrator reading his email. Let me tell ya, there's nothing like lying in bed with my laptop, running my vibe all over my body, teasing my stiffening nipples before holding my toy close to my pussy, rubbing my clit softly while reading a hot email. I probably came quicker tonight than I have in a while and had to push my laptop away as I came, as I kicked my legs wide and plunged the vibrator deep into my pussy before riding it wildly, sending myself back into a second and third orgasm.

Anyway... Here's the email that did it for me ;)

Hi Chloe,
I just found your blog and it made my day. Not only are you a great writer, but your honesty is awesome. I'm a bit older than you (40ist), but work in a similar office environment. I guess I'm in a similar position to Tyler.
The office fantasy thing is right up my alley, and being a bit on the dominant side of things, you really made my day.
I first read your blog on Friday, I went home, took my wife right up to the walk in closet, and told her to strip down. I told her I was going to fuck her hard, and that she was going to do what I told her. She did as she was told.
I'm not sure if you want all of the details, you can email back if you like, but needless to say, you really inspired me.
Thanks again,


J

Back to Earth

Monday, April 6, 2009

Ah Mondays... reminder of the realities of life, killer of the weekend, slayer of fantasies... why must you mock me so?

Today started wonderfully, surprisingly. Dressed to impress (as has recently become the norm for me, though the effort is starting to wear me down), I took my usual stroll to the bakery. Even the nasty weather today couldn't dampen my excitement at getting a chance to flirt with my bakery crush... Naomi, my secret desire was again there and again looking as scrumptious as her scones. Now I must take a moment to remind you here of something, I certainly don't consider myself a lesbian or even as 'bi', but there's just something about Naomi that excites me. There's just something about her that makes me want to see more, do more, taste her...

Usually she smiles with just a hint of recognition, considering me perhaps as a slightly familiar face in a sea of customers. This morning however she actually took a moment to stop and look at me, noticing the brown stone necklace that neatly complimented my outfit.
'I love your necklace', she'd said. 'Do you mind if I ask where you got it?'
'Oh thanks!' I had replied, flustered all to hell. 'An ex got it for me, probably just plucked it from the clearance bin at Macy's on Christmas Eve'.
'Exes' she'd said, with a wry look. 'I guess that's why they're exes'

I must admit, I turned beet red but I think I got away with it. As she handed me my scone she looked me in the eye for perhaps a second or two longer than normal before saying 'see you tomorrow, I hope'.

Excitement! Now I can't wait until the morning... a rare feeling for me!

I went to work unsure of what Tyler's attitude would be after the happenings on Friday night. I was a little nervous and had been thinking about it a lot last night. What if something did happen between us? Tyler is a senior partner at the firm, if things were to happen and then turn ugly, it wouldn't be him that was looking for a new job. Perhaps I should work to make sure that this relationship remains cordial and professional? Tyler is after all married and I don't make a habit of playing with married men. As much as I want Tyler to bend me over his desk and spank me, finger me and fuck me; would it be the beginning of the end? What should I do? Your opinions are, as always, welcome.

As it happened Tyler was out of the office most of the day for his case, and I barely spoke two words to him. Perhaps tomorrow I'll have to begin 'Operation Cold, Yet Professional Shoulder'?

Lazy Sunday

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Nothing much today. Finally watching Secretary properly, with a cup of tea in my bed :)

Can't share the video I wanted to with my favorite spanking scene because YouTube doesn't allow embedding. But I thought I'd share this one. Love an S&M love story :)

More tomorrow. For now, it's laundry and movies in bed for me!

All was not lost, Part III

Saturday, April 4, 2009

The saga continues...

I'd barely recovered from my toe curling orgasm on Jim's face when he lifted me up and tossed me back on the bed. That's one thing that never fails to slay me. A guy that can toss me around like a rag doll is a huge turn on. Jim grinned down at me and my heart melted a little bit. He's got such a sweet boyish charm and is so enthusiastic in the bedroom. Christ, I really couldn't let myself feel anything with him...

He lowered himself on top of me and slid into my dripping wet pussy, burying himself to the hilt. I could feel his balls against my ass and I started squirming, trying to get him to move. He's such a tease! He started slowly sliding in and out, pausing every time he entered me, using his pubic bone to put pressure on my clit. I could feel another orgasm building and he was driving me nuts.

God, even drunk Jim knows how to make me cum over and over. I'm fully capable of multiple orgasms, under the right circumstances, but it doesn't happen with many guys. There were times with Jim I had so many I lost count. I grabbed his ass, pulling him closer to me and he started thrusting faster and harder. I braced my foot against the wall and angled my hips just so, allowing him to go deeper. At this point I wasn't even saying words, it was just incoherent strings of 'ohgodohgodohgodohfuck' as he drove into me deeper, harder and faster. My eyes squeezed shut as I focused on the sensation of Jim's cock. 'open your eyes, beautiful. I want you to look at me when you cum'. I opened my eyes to see Jim gazing at me. He slowed down his thrusts and pulled back until the tip of his cock rested against the entrance to my pussy. Then slowly, deliberately he slid back in. I sighed and arched my back trying to pull him deeper. Instead, he repeated the process, easing out and rubbing the head against my swollen pussy, the whole time looking directly into my eyes. I was nearly insane with lust and the need to feel him inside me, all the way inside me. Sensing that I was close, he thrust himself deep inside me, effectively impaling me. I started shaking as my orgasm rolled over me, I reached up and pulled Jim down to me, moaning into his mouth. Barely able to breathe, never mind think clearly, or move properly, limbs like jelly, I was about ready to just collapse on the bed. Jim had other ideas... He pulled out and flipped me over onto my stomach... Jim knows me so well :)

He started fucking me from behind, grabbing my hair and pulling my head back to bite my neck. I arched my back further into him as fucked me harder. For a while there was no sound but our ragged breathing and the slapping sound as he thrust into me. He pulled my head back again and whispered in my ear 'god, you feel fucking amazing. I love fucking you. I love feeling your wet pussy on my cock'... phrases, words, sounds, all making me wetter than ever. Dirty talk always sounds so fucking ridiculous out of context, but god, in the moment, it sends me over the edge. Jim knows this. As he started fucking me harder and harder, reaching underneath me to play with my clit he whispered 'that's it, i want to feel you cum again. cum for me, i want to feel you cum... do it now!' His growly whisper and the domination inherent in the demand brought me to the edge again. I could feel him tensing up, his balls starting to tighten as he came close to cumming. The knowledge sent waves of pleasure through me, and I came just as he shuddered and collapsed on top of me.

He leaned down and brushed the hair off my neck, pressing a kiss just below my ear. 'god I've missed fucking you'.

'Me too'

He rolled off me and threw his arm around me, dragging him into his arms. He kissed the top of my head and promptly passed out :)

I was tired, but sleep was elusive. The sex had been amazing, as expected. But I worried about staying the night. This really needed to be a one time thing, and as much as I wanted to sink into sleep in Jim's arms, it was probably best to go home. Decided, I extricated myself from Jim's sweaty embrace and eased off the bed.

As Jim lay sprawled on the mattress, snoring, I gathered my things and crept out of his apartment. In the cold light of day (if 4 am counts as 'day'), I took in the details of his room that I'd been too drunk and horny to really pay attention to earlier. The lumpy mattress on the floor, covered with a flat sheet and a ratty old sleeping bag. The empty takeout containers, stacks of pizza boxes, old coffee cups with soggy cigarette butts floating in them, blankets hung up over the windows as curtains.

This is what I meant by Jim not really advancing past 18 or so. You'd never know it to look at him, but he's actually quite a bit older than me. And yet he lives like an overgrown frat boy. He regularly stays out drinking until 4 or 5 in the morning, and just sorta floats through life without any real plan. I'm not a snob, and I don't necessarily care if a man has money or a high powered career, but fuck I'd like to do it in a bed more than 6 inches off the floor with some proper sheets. The thing is, it isn't that Jim can't afford to buy an actual sheet set, or hang up those $2.99 vinyl blinds, he just prefers to keep living like a college kid. Hanging on to his youth maybe? He does always date much younger women. Hmm...

It's why as hot as things can be with Jim, they'd never have worked out, even if he hadn't nailed my roommate. All I want is a sweet guy, hot in the sack, witty and charming, with perhaps some real furniture. A chair maybe? A couch that came from a store and not a street corner? God, I'm so demanding :)

*sigh*

Jim is like that last drink you shouldn't have had at the bar - you know you're going to feel gross and slightly dirty, and possibly nauseous later, but at the time... it's so good.

Oh well. I needed to get laid, and I got laid. I just need to make sure I stay away from Jim in the future. The sex is too good. He quickly makes me forget beds with frames, normal bedtimes and proper nutrition. Before I know it, I'm happily staying up drinking until 4 am, lounging on his grubby mattress in my panties, eating cold pizza and calling in sick to work, only venturing out for condoms and late brunch. Bad news :)

All was not lost, Part II

Okay, fortified with coffee, bacon and eggs, I'm feeling somewhat more human. Funny, I used to stay out all night in college with no real consequences, but now staying up until 4 or 5 am makes me feel like the walking dead the next day. Have I really gotten that old so quickly?! Clearly, the party girl in me is gone :)

Let's see, where was I? Out for drinks with Abbie and the girls... We bar hopped a bit, trying to find just the right atmosphere. One nice thing about NYC, there's a bar for every mood, every crowd, every situation. We spent some time at the typical ironic hipster 'dive' bars - not real dives of course, but that kind of carefully prepared 'dirtiness' that makes you feel like you're in some disreputable place. They always serve drinks in plastic cups and PBR is ubiquitous - I suppose to heighten the atmosphere?

Of course, in college I used to drink at an honest-to-goodness dive bar because they served $1 Pabst Blue Ribbon. I was broke and it was all I could afford. My best friend Grace and I used to go to the dive, get good and tipsy on dollar beers and then head across the street to the high-end cigar bar built in an old train station. We'd splurge on one $8 drink (big bucks when you're a broke college kid!) and soak up the atmosphere sitting in giant armchairs and pretending to be richer than we were. So there's a part of me that scoffs at paying New York prices for cheap beer served to pretentious hipsters trying to cultivate an aura of authenticity... Not that I'm any more 'authentic' than the rest :)

Plus, I must admit I have a soft spot for the New York hipster boys - all skinny jeans, indie rock t-shirts and messy hair. I'm a sucker for a man in Converse sneakers :)

So there I am, sipping my gin and tonic out my little plastic cup, laughing with the girls, and rocking out to the Clash, when I glance up and see Jim. I dated Jim for about a year before he got drunk and fucked my roommate at my birthday party. Happy birthday to me, indeed. Of course I promptly ditched him (and her), and of course I stupidly gave into 'ex sex' several times in the months after our breakup. What can I say? I was in love with him before he banged my slut of a roommate and those feelings aren't always so easy to turn off. But I soon realized the error of my ways and swore not to see him anymore. And I haven't. For nearly 3 years. Amazing, really that I haven't. You'd think in a city as big as New York you could go months without ever seeing an ex, but you'd be wrong. The universe has a funny way of dropping a former boyfriend into my life whenever I'm at the laundromat, hair up in a messy ponytail and wearing whatever is still clean, which generally happens to be sweats. Of course, said ex is generally with his new lady friend who of course is smoking hot... Grace and I went to college in a fairly small city, and dated quite a bit, so we both used to run into exes on the regular. Her motto was "look super cute, all the time", and she'd never let me leave the house looking anything less than awesome. Guess the same holds true here :)

So there I am, sitting at a table in the back, already halfway to shitfaced, when Jim walks in with a few friends. I simultaneously praying he doesn't see me and hoping that he'll look my way, because I know I look good. One the one hand, seeing him while drunk can be dangerous, on the other, I don't really want to sit here watching him put the moves on other girls. I'm over him, but it is never easy to watch an ex picking up chicks.

While I'm holding a silent argument with myself about whether I should say hi or sink further into the shadows of the booth I'm sitting in, he turns as though sensing me and looks straight at my table. Shit.

With his big dopey grin that never fails to turn me to jello, he starts weaving through the bar towards my table. 'Hey Chloe'. I stifle a sigh and look up at him, 'Hey Jim'. He isn't a terrible guy, he's just an idiot. And hasn't really progressed at all past 18 or so. Plus I'm drunk, lonely, frustrated as hell from my evening with Tyler... and Jim still does it for me. Damn.

I don't really remember too much about what we talked about. Probably nothing much. I just know Jim kept buying me gin and tonics, and I kept drinking them. Before long we were in the corner of the booth practically in each others laps and he had his hand up my shirt. Just the brush of his thumb against my nipple was almost enough to send me over the edge... I breathed in his ear 'Let's go back to your place'. His place was easier - closer to the bar and I wouldn't have to worry about the awkward kicking him out the next morning. Even in my semi-wasted state, I knew I didn't want Jim staying over for pancakes the next morning :)

We hopped in a cab and headed towards his apartment, making out the whole way. I can't imagine what it must be like to be a city cab driver, the number of drunk hookups you see on any given weekend must be mind-boggling! Drunk as I was, I didn't care... I let my head fall back against the seat as Jim's hand slipped under skirt and creeped up my thigh. I parted my legs slightly and nestled my pussy closer against his hand. He gently stroked me through my panties, soaking them as they rubbed against my pussy. God, between the tension with Tyler and Jim's maddening fingers teasing my clit, I needed to be fucked. Now.

With some quick maneuvering I kicked my black lace panties off and slipped them into my purse. Jim gave me a wicked grin and leaned in to catch my nipple in my teeth through the thin cotton of my blouse. I gasped and felt chills break out all over my body. Jesus, if we didn't make it to his apartment soon I was going to straddle him in the back seat, never mind the cabbie sneaking glances in his rearview.


Fortunately, we pulled up in front of Jim's building a few moments later. Jim threw some money at the driver and we scrambled out of the backseat, panting and giggling. I waited impatiently while Jim fumbled for his keys, thinking Fuck, hurry up! Any longer standing in the cold with a breeze blowing up my skirt and I'm going to sober up and change my mind...

We scrambled up his stairs, me first. Jim slid his hand under my skirt and started fingering me as I walked. I nearly sank to my knees, struggling to keep walking. 'God, you have an amazing ass' Jim growled in my ear. I paused for a moment, enjoying the attention and then grabbed his hand and dragged him the rest of the way to his door.

See, this is the thing that's so appealing about ex sex - there is none of that first date nervousness, none of the wondering what it'll be like, none of the disappointment when you have that first kiss and realize the guy slobbers on you like a demented puppy, or you have sex and he's the kind of guy that pounds away at you like a jackhammer, sweating and grunting with no thought to whether you're enjoying it at all. Jim, for all his faults, knows just how to touch me, just how to make me quiver, just how to get me off. The mystery and excitement of a first time can be amazing, but sometimes you just want the sure thing.

I walked Jim towards his room. I had considered being coy and pretending to not remember which one was his but my impatience got the better of me. I rushed into his room and jumped onto his bed, knowing that he would follow. He did.

We both got straight down to it, ripping each others clothes off. My jacket had already been lost between the front door and Jim's room, my shirt soon was half unbuttoned and then pulled over my head. Jim didn't even wait for my bra to be taken off properly, he just reached and freed 'the girls' from their restraints. Taking one nipple fully in his mouth he rolled the other with his fingers, sending me into heaven. As he worked on my chest I started to pull his shirt over his head, allowing my nails to dig into his back as I dragged the fabric from his body. He recoiled in pain and pleasure... I know Jim, I know he loves to be scratched.

With his shirt off, he stood proudly in front of me. I could see through his jeans that he was already rock hard and ready. Man, I had missed that cock and I couldn't wait to feel it inside me once more. Jim however had other ideas...

He grabbed my waist and dragged me towards the end of his bed. Running his hand underneath my legs he paused to kneed my ass. He proceeded upward, sliding the zipper down he pulled down my skirt leaving me lying, waiting, wearing just my stockings and heels.

The anticipation was killing me, and Jim didn't disappoint. Often I don't enjoy oral as much as you'd think, with most guys I get the feeling that they see it more as a chore or as leverage so that I'll go down on him. Not Jim though, he has always considered it an art form to be perfected. For being a cheating douchebag, one thing that Jim knows is just how to make me skyrocket into orgasmic pleasure with his tongue and fingers.

Jim took up position, sitting on the floor in between my legs. Parting my pussy he gently teased my clit with his tongue while softly and gently finger fucking me. He started with one finger then quickly added a second, my moisture allowing him to easily flick in and out, sometimes curling his fingers so that they pressured my G spot. His mouth continued to play with my hardening clit, he used all of the different textures on his tongue to quickly send me towards orgasm. I struggled to contain my screams knowing that his room mates would be listening but failed miserably, calling out his name as I came on his fingers, sending streams of my cum into his mouth. As I arched my back and squeezed his head in between my thighs my hands grabbed onto his hair, pushing his head deeper towards me.

My god... is that the time already? I think this story needs a part 3... stay tuned ;)

All was not lost...

Hi everyone, thanks for all of your emails. I have to tell you, you all really know how to make me feel good :)

Last night was quite an event! Right now I'm sitting in my apartment, clutching a great big mug of tea, enjoying my alone time. It's all a far cry from the craziness of what happened...

I did work late, alone with Tyler. He ordered Chinese food and we sat in his office, pouring over legal files. It felt very 'Law and Order', to be honest, I sometimes caught glimpses of us in the reflection of the window; chopsticks sticking out of cartons of fried rice, binders piled up on his desk.

For the most part everything was very professional and above board. Tyler looked so hot though, with his tie loosened and the top two buttons of his shirt undone.

Just as I was starting to think that this was going to be all work and no play, Tyler excused himself to go to the bathroom. He took a while and left me alone in his office. Alone, apart from my fantasies. I noticed the photograph on his desk of his wife and pictured Tyler coming into the room, silently walking over to his desk and placing the frame face down, as if she couldn't see what was to come next. Kneeling in front of me he's run his hands up my skirt, sliding down my panties. Opening the drawer to his desk he'd place them in there, keeping them as a souvenir. Running his hand back towards my moistening pussy he'd...

My thought process was interrupted by his reappearance. Looking a little flustered his tie was now removed. I looked, naturally, towards his crotch and happened to notice that his zipper was undone. What exactly should I say in that situation? Do I tell him or let him figure it out for himself?

I also noticed an unmistakable bulge. It seemed that Tyler had at least a semi erection... Had he been masturbating in there??

The thought of that possibility turned me on immensely. He walked over towards me and leaned over me, picking some food from his desk. As he stood his 'bulge' was now directly in front of my face... as he passed by me to sit at his desk I caught a faint whiff of sex and lust. Not one word had been said since he came back from the bathroom, but the room screamed sex. I have to tell you, I ached for him at that moment.

Not long afterwards he shuffled some papers and broke the silence. 'I think we're done here' he announced. 'See you Monday'.

At this point, it was about midnight - Tyler's got me horny as hell and then he just sends me on my way? Bastard. :)

It was still early enough to head out and meet the girls, so I gathered my things and sent a quick text to Abbie to let them know I was on my way.

As it turned out, the combination of unfulfilled desire, alcohol and running into an old flame was a little bit dangerous...

But for now, I'm off to get my hangover cure: bacon, eggs over medium, english muffins and lots of hot coffee.

I'll post part two when I've returned refreshed :)

Well....

I'm a little tipsy, very tired, and about to climb into my bed.

Tonight ended up being a little crazy, and I'm not too sure how I feel about what happened. I'm sure that the clarity of day will put some perspective on events, but right now I just feel... strange.

I'll explain all tomorrow (well, later today). Goodnight all, and sweet dreams.

Tyler the Tyrant

Friday, April 3, 2009

Ugh! I was hoping to head out for drinks tonight with some girlfriends, maybe manage to cleavage my way into a few free drinks and a drunken fumble or two, then head home and finally re-watch Secretary... and instead I'm working late :(

Tyler the Tyrant has a big case Monday morning and asked if I could stay behind to help him get stuff ready. Normally, I'd love to be alone in his office with him late at night, but I suspect this is going to be more about reams of paperwork and less about fucking like mad on his plush carpeting.

*sigh*

Anyway, I shouldn't be doing this at work, but I wanted to take a few minutes to check some emails and bitch on my blog :)

A day in the life, pt. 2

Since my post the other day about my daily life 'derailed' a little, I figured I'd continue a little bit and share some info about my life at work...

I work for one of those fairly big, ultra-conservative firms in the city, stereotypically corporate... The men always wear blue or red ties; if they're feeling a little 'wild' they might break out the pastels. The women all dress in dark suits, carry handbags big enough to hold a puppy, and smart heels of the 'don't-fuck-with-me' corporate ice queen variety. In short, it is the kind of firm that probably wouldn't appreciate knowing that one of their employees is blogging about her sexual adventures and fantasies for all to see! Although I get the feeling some of my coworkers wouldn't mind at all seeing some of the photos of me that you've already seen... how does it feel to know that hot-shot lawyers are jealous of you? ;)

I did take this job with dreams of one day walking in their shoes, looking all important as I rush from a high powered meeting with a client to a court appointment. As it is, I usually sit at my desk with some fairly mundane task and am generally stuck with the feeling that I'm kind of under appreciated. At least I know from the emails that I've had from readers of this blog that some people out there appreciate me!

Recently, I have as you know been making more of an effort as far as my appearance goes. I always looked smart, but didn't really do too much to make the most of my 'assets'. I dressed well, but practically and as a result I don't know that I was exactly 'desired' by those around me.

Since first noticing Naomi at my local bakery, and since deciding that I simply had to look my best when I saw her; the pants have been replaced by figure hugging skirts, the flat soled shoes replaced by terrifically sexy heels, the conservative tops replaced by shirts that make the most of my cleavage. I now dress to kill, and from the looks that I've been getting on the subway and in my office, it seems as though I'm hitting targets!

My boss, Tyler certainly seems to be one to have noticed my mini-transformation. He is a little power hungry, and still likes to bark his orders at me, but his attitude seems to have altered slightly. I sometimes catch him glimpsing at me, and I sometimes make sure that I'm bending over in just the right way when he does...

If only Tyler knew what goes through my mind when I see him, looking at me as I bend over to pick something up that I 'accidentally' dropped in front of him. If only he knew that I want to walk into his office, silently walk up to him, swivel his chair around and bend myself over his knee... stroking his cock through his pants while he pulls up my skirt and spanks me....

I used to be lunch friends with a former employee here, who left the company about six months ago. Abbie was very cute, and always dressed to impress. She would often confide in me about some of Tyler's behavior, she'd tell me that he would touch her inappropriately and had dropped some not so subtle hints that he found her sexually attractive and wanted to progress their relationship from professional to intimate. Whenever she told me these things I'd express disgust at this abuse of power, telling her that it just wasn't acceptable. Inside though, part of me felt terribly jealous. Even though I knew it would be wrong, I too wanted to be seen as a potential conquest of his, someone worthy of his attentions.

Yesterday, he handed me a file and brushed my arm with his hand, giving me a devilishly sexy smile as he did so that caused me to blush terribly and sent a tingle throughout my pussy. I swear, just one touch from him made me moist!

Today, as I stood photocopying, he brushed behind me. There's plenty of room to comfortably pass without contact, so I'm sure that the hand that swept across my ass wasn't accidental. Again, a wave of pleasure engulfed me and I wore a stupid grin for the rest of the day.

Perhaps I'm reading too much into these two, relatively small incidents... or, perhaps this is the beginning of something new?

Wanna watch something with me?

Thursday, April 2, 2009

You may have guessed from some of my posts that I've got quite a thing for spanking... I'm not into hardcore bondage, but I do love to be dominated - tied up, spanked, blindfolded... you get the idea. I'm still waiting for Secretary to arrive from Netflix, but it's definitely got me thinking about the boss-secretary dynamic, and Tyler bending me over his desk, binding my hands behind my back with his belt and spanking me for making a spelling mistake on an important document. With that in mind, I headed over to my favorite porn site to see if I could find a good video for a little after dinner 'entertainment'...

This one really did it for me... The set up of the girl dreaming/fantasizing about being tied up matches pretty closely to what's been going through my head lately every time Tyler calls me into his office... Plus, I do love being tied to my bed... So I thought I'd share and give you all a little more insight into what makes me tick.

Enjoy! I know I'll be watching this again later ;)

A quickie...

So this isn't as exciting as the title would imply... You may have noticed that Blogger is insisting on having "older posts" and "newer posts" at the bottom of the page in Portuguese. It is driving me nuts! First person to email me with a fix gets a special treat from me ;)

chloe.danielson2@gmail.com

Edit: I've seen a bunch of other blogs with the same thing, so I think it is a Blogger bug. So it looks like it is likely unfixable at the moment. But I still want to give away free photos! So, since I've had a long crappy day and Blogger is making me cranky, next 5 people to email me a truly hilarious joke get a free photo! Nothing turns me on more than a guy (or a girl!) who can make me laugh...

A day in the life...

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

I've gotten a few emails from you all wondering about who I am and what I do. And since I sadly haven't had any exciting adventures lately (wearing out my vibrator DOESN'T count!), I figured I'd share a few of the more mundane details of my life...

I work at a law firm in the city, so every morning I get all coiffed and professional and stroll down the street for a scone on my way to work...

Okay, that's a lie. In reality, I'm horrible at mornings, so I frantically run around my house trying to find clean clothes, shoes that match my clothes, my keys, my purse, my cell, tripping over my two cats all the while. I barely manage to brush my hair and throw on mascara before I have to run out the door in order to catch my train. Even still, I always somehow manage to find time to stop at the bakery to scope out Naomi. She's done wonders for my morning routine, and quite possibly my professional career. My lust for the bakery goddess has inspired me to actually put a little effort in. These days I'm generally wearing a pencil skirt that shows off my ass, stockings and sexy heels... dunno if Naomi has noticed, but I'm pretty sure I caught my boss Tyler staring at my ass when I was bent over the copier this morning. So I guess my effort has paid off :)

After my brief interlude of staring at Naomi and imagining what she'd smell like as I run my tongue along her earlobe (sweat, fresh baked goods, and sex is what I like to think), I hop on the train for the ride into the city. The train is always packed, full of cranky people trying to read a newspaper, juggle coffee and avoid making eye contact with anyone else. Generally, this means that I've got some corporate-type asshole holding the entire Wall Street Journal right in my face. One of the other delights of my morning is the 'groper'. There is always a groper on the subway. Why is this? Of course on a crowded train you can't really avoid rubbing up against people. But there always seems to be a gentleman who stands just a little too close... Maybe my tight skirts and fishnet stockings are having more of an effect on the pervy train guys than Naomi :)

Each morning I cram myself into the train car and try to ignore the guy rubbing his cock against my ass. The thing is, when I feel that slight swelling behind me, and the self-conscious adjustment the guy makes as he tries to simultaneously hide his erection and cop a feel, I'm disgusted. But I'm also turned on... It's so impersonal, this hard-on poking me in the ass, yet something about it gets me going. As much as I giggle with my girlfriends about the nasty guy on the train trying to nudge his dick into my personal space, I'm strangely aroused. And when my morning commute doesn't involve a semi-hard cock, I must admit I feel bereft :)

This morning, I'm afraid I got a little naughty...

As I stood on the train sipping my tea, I felt a little nudge as the guy behind me pressed against my back. He smelled amazing, woodsy and fresh and incredibly masculine. Without turning around, I shifted position slightly, pressing my ass against his cock - just a little, wanting to see what he'd do. Sure enough I felt a twitch as his cock started to get harder. Pretending I was getting something out of my laptop bag at my feet, I leaned over and pressed my ass into his crotch, gratified to feel quite a significant bulge. I stood back up and felt his breath on my neck as he struggled to get himself under control... I started using the movement of the train to my advantage - every time the train lurched, I 'accidentally' massaged his cock with my ass, sliding back and forth along the shaft, feeling the tip straining against the front of his pants. I amused myself imagining how his cock would look. Would he be cut? uncut? Would he be hairy or keep it trimmed? Would it be as big as it felt? I imagined what it would be like to run my tongue along the underside of his shaft, cupping his heavy balls as I tease him with my tongue, circling the tip of his cock until I take him completely into my mouth...

By this time I was completely wet, my pussy aching with a need to be filled. I kept my face carefully neutral as I more brazenly arched my back a little and pushed further back against his cock. I heard his breath catch, but he didn't move away. Taking this an invitation to keep going, I moved my hips in little half circles... God, I was dying to fuck this guy, this complete stranger. I didn't even know what he looked like! But the feel of his cock, this totally anonymous cock against my ass had left my panties dripping.

I wanted - and desperately needed - him to slide his hand under my skirt and pull my panties aside. I imagined the feel of his slightly callused fingers slipping along my wet lips, and his delight at how I responded to his smallest movement, teasing me until I was shaking with the need to be penetrated. Subway guy wouldn't give in easily, I knew. He'd keep feathering little caresses over my swollen pussy, just brushing my clit, starting to slide in a fingertip, and then pulling away. When I couldn't take it anymore, he'd plunge two fingers deep into my pussy and I would bite my lips to keep from crying out and alerting all the other train passengers to what was going on... Oh, god. If only...

Just as I was sure I was going to start moaning out loud, I realized we were nearly at my stop. As the train pulled into the station, I leaned over to pick up my bag, enjoying one last brush with train guy's cock. Without turning around, I walked off the train and up the stairs to the street. I didn't want to know what he looked like, I wanted to keep our perfectly anonymous moment...

As soon as I got to the office, I practically ran to the bathroom. My pussy was so sensitive and swollen, I nearly came just from the friction... I got to a private stall, made sure no one could hear me, and finally got my release.

Hmm... I was planning on writing a bit about my work life, but recounting my adventure with the subway guy has got me all hot and bothered :) I think I might have to postpone writing for a bit and have a hot date with my trusty vibrator. I do know one thing, I've got a new favorite fantasy :)

My wandering mind...

I only have time for a short post today, my boss is being a bit of a jerk and has overloaded me with work, and has made me feel pretty shitty in the process. I like a lot of things about my job, I like the people that I work with and I love commuting to the city (even if that does mean that I often have to stand on the train and basically get groped daily by some of my fellow passengers), I like working in the legal field, and sometimes, but only sometimes! I actually do like my boss. Sometimes though, he’s a little too much!

Most days I have quite a lot of time to myself and can surf the web (only on ‘safe for work’ sites, of course!) and access my personal email. Recently I’ve been getting a bit of mail from some of the people reading this blog, which is awesome! Please keep them coming to chloe.danielson2@gmail.com :) the last couple of days though, my boss has seen fit to give me a bunch of new projects. What does he think I’m here to do? Work?

As much as I sometimes dislike him, I have to admit that he is cute in his own way. He’s called Tyler, he’s very tall (about 6’4”), is in fairly good shape but clearly has a middle aged spread going on, and has piercing, dark brown eyes. Oh those eyes! There are times when he looks at me in a certain way, I swear that those eyes are burrowing deep into my soul, identifying all of my secrets and desires and finding out that one of my greatest fantasies is to be called into his office, told to take off my panties, bent over his desk and then spanked by his large, beautifully toned hands…

Time to Netflix… I’ve moved ‘Secretary’ up on my list so that it’ll arrive in a couple of days. If you haven’t seen it, it’s about a man who dishes out spankings to his secretary… it was the basis for this fantasy with Tyler, and it’s time for me to watch it again ;)